Well, after a very long SABBATICAL it seems that I am back! And when I say "I", I mean the original, the true version of I or me. The me that rarely shows herself, or rather gets thru the barrage of layers that block her existance. I pray this makes sense or someone reading this might think I am crazy. Ha! That was funny...I am crazy. Worse than being crazy, is knowing I am crazy. In that I mean, I know who the real me is and when she is stiffled it is so frustrating because I cannot seem to let her out by my shear will alone. No, it takes time and therapy and medication, and time.
So, since my last major break-down, over a year has passed and I experienced some ups and downs with some good and bad times. I almost crashed again, but I was stronger this time than the demon and I prevailed. I am lucky that I was able to stay afloat enough that I could get back to shore. Like my analogies? This one is fitting...for I do sometimes feel like I am drowning in my craziness. So, I feel good. I feel sad that I missed so much or just could not, did not appreciate the time that has passed since I lost myself last.
But let us not focus on that any longer. I cannot get that time back and no reason to dwell on it.
IT IS GOOD TO BE BACK!
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